So I was told I have all this instability in my life because nothing in my life has been consistent. I need a "rock" so to speak. I dumbly never realized that I always constantly have one and that is God. I went to church on Sunday for the first time in a LONG time it felt like, and I just worshipped and felt so renewed because I really got where I'm supposed to be everyday with God. And Sunday night I had the special music and it has been getting less and less nerve-racking each time I play in front of people. Sure, Jerry switched up the tempo on me even when we practiced it 5 times and he was the one that suggested we play it faster when he played it slower for the performance, but I'm not upset, and so many people enjoyed it and I got to show people what God has gifted me with and what he is still doing in my life. And that's most important. But shortly before that a couple of my "friends" decided to be real jerks and start some drama with me over something totally stupid. Josh Kerr and Brad McKee learned that I am talking to Christopher again, and they got upset. Kerr thinks I absolutely love drama and that Christopher is a manwhore and I'm stupid for going back to him. B-rad thinks the same but he chooses to word it more colorfully and say "dumbass"...oh and he told me last night he wanted to kill me. Literally. I didn't believe him but apparently it's true. I stopped talking to him, and I fear he knows too much about me. He called me a "bandwhore" whatever that is...I just laughed at him. A lot. He just continued to spit insults at me and I just continued to let them bounce off me...whatever. I'm too chill and hopped up to care. Not on drugs, but I have no idea what it is. Maybe it's just this time of the year...even though Mother Nature and Father Time must be having a fight because it was SOOO freaking cold this morning. I literally thought that when I was walking up from my car. Oh exciting news, I think I get to see him this week. :) If all goes well and I can make some plans for that Thursday, I'll be sitting in a romantic spot at Warriors with the only love of my life. :) Hopefully, all is well that will end well. And I pray that this ends well.
MC
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what was suppose to go on here was that i would be your rock baby. you need God as a rock, no doubt about that, but you can use me as well. I will always be here for you. Whenever you need me. I promise.
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